KNOCKED YOU DOWN ♥

SPOTTED: a girl well dressed in school uniform, confronting her laptop and blogging at the time of 8am in this lovely weather (raining) to sleep.


okiee.
that's me. =)

HEY PEEPS!
ah yesh.
i skipped school again!!
the 3rd day.
luckily i have a medical cert.
otherwise i will crowned to be ABSENT QUEEN again. TSK**
okie. here's the story.

my mom informed me that she will be fetch my brother to school today due to the weather.
okie..
still normal..
then i've done all the same routine as usual...
okie..
stil very normal.
i glanced over my wrist watch. 7.26a.m.
and her car doesnt even show up. YET.
OKIE.
now i can sense something unusual.
TICK -TOCK-TICK-TOCK.
its 7.40a.m.
and im still sitting outside waiting for my mom.
school had started uhh 10 minutes ago.
TICK-TOCK-TICK-TOCK.
its 7.45a.m.
a gold-coloured nissan sentra just appeared outside my car porch.
a familiar face popped out.
it's my mom.
M:''ahh. sorry dear, to be soooo late. i've confronted a vry sucky traffic jam just now. is that okie i fetch you go now? will teachers going to punish you??''
Y:''erm. yesh. will be punished for 1 whole period. it's okie.''
M:''WHAT?! ONE WHOLE PERIOD?''
Y:''yeshhh~~ picking up some trash or something around the school.''
M:''aiyah. no need to go today lah.''
Y:'' (grinning deep down in my heart, but pretending iive couldnt do something important on my face). ahh, okayyy. anyway, i've woke daddy just now, to fetch me go, but he was just sleeping like a pig. so....''

hahahahah.
so...
turns out im blogging now! XD

pheww.
gtg to continue my sleep.
it's really a NICEEEE weather.

so long, peeps!!!

XOXO,

♥

FROM DUSK TO DAWN ♥

here's a picha of a sunset view from mah house. =)
took it yesterday,
by using a super duper hyper lousy camera!

hey peeps,
sorry for not updating my blog for such a long time.
i was getting more and moreeee lazy. XD
and practically im sick.
so it makes my mind sort of *blank* sometimes. =pp

ahhh. my blog needs a fresh new skin seriouslyyyy.
i keep on searching and searching but still.
theres not one suits me!!!
swttssss.

okieee.
let's see....
life's getting pretty boring recently.
but still my school life's are soooooooo *trying to find a word to describe it*
ahh yesss, DULL.
my life is just like a, uhhh, ''recycle machine''.
yesh.
always the same thing REPEATSSSS.
well.
unfortunately this ''recycle machine'' is still going to operate for 1 and a half yearssss!!!!
*SOB*

anyway,
i've drove to and back from chemistry tuition last thursday weyhhhh!
thankkkss a million jackieee!!!
for willing and BRAVE to take a risk on your cute littleee MYVI.
XDXD.
and the results was... *drum-scrolling*
jackie rated me 4 stars out of 5!!!
AHAHAHAHA.
P/S: he's a prof driver. no doubt for the ratingsss! XD
JEEZ. luckily there's no police out there. TSKTSK.
but i couldnt let my parents know it.
if not i'd be DEAD MEAT. XD

ahhh.
righhht.
im officially back to SINGLE!
UHH,
theres something im quite curious about.
why do ppl tends to asked me ''do you cried?'' when they knew this?
do i seems so... WEAK? or SOULFUL.. enough??
hah.
ahh. you guys are so not understands me.
ppl who knows me very well know i WONT cry for err, relationship's stuff.
i don't know why.
somehow or maybe i am cold-blooded or something. XDXD
perhaps i think my tears doesnt worth it AT ALL.
ahh.
im really cruel. *TSK*

btw,
im seriously gonna studyyyyyy.
ya know,
REAL STUDYYY!
b'cos my results was EFFING SHYYYTTT.
i failed for my ADD MATHS AND PHYSICCCCSSS!!!!
ADD MATHS nvrm, im kinda biasa ady. as im SUPER DUPER WEAK in maths! XD
but, PHYSICSSS WEYH!!!!
i felt so sorry to mr. ong and so mad of myself when i took the result paper from mah teacher.
GAWD.
gottttaa gotta gottttaaaa helllaaaa save all the physics concept and formulae into my brain's memory!!
tetrabyte wasnt enough too, i guessed.
*SIGH*
peeps, pls slap on mah face if i EVER FAIL MY PHYSICS AGAIN!!!!
i will PAY you to do so!!! *kidd.

finally, theres something im quite looking forward.
im going to a camera fair with xuen this thursday!!!!!
yesh,
*if her mom doesnt cancel the plan suddenly.
HEH,
discount up to 90% for cameras and slr!!!
ahh yes.
i've always love the term -DISCOUNT-
well, who doesnt LOVE ittttt?! XD
gonna seek for a fine slr that dayy. hope my dad is in a good mood that day.
im going to persuade him to buy one no matter how!
pray for me, peeps!!

it's 1.30am at the moment,
and im going to skipping school tomorrow!!
hey, im not PONTENG.
dont forget, im SICK. =(((((

OOO.
i think it's quite long enough to overcome my so-long-not-updated blog ady righttt?
okieee...



so long, everybodaee! XOXO

♥

P/S:i'll try to be uhh, hardworking for errr, update the next blog. XDD

soulful night

its 1 in the morning.
and there loads of stuff running across my mind.
seriously it made me barely could sleep.

since when fun became a pressure??
hmm. im not sure.

since when you became like a stranger??
im not sure either.

since when school became the most unlike place for me to go?
im not sure too.

everything became upside down.
silently.
without my notice.

when ive realised,
its too late.




i wanna tell someone that.
i miss you...
you might not know...
it just sometimes i feel awkward to tell you..
im actually need you.
ily.


pls dont become a stranger..

FINALLY

FINALLY.
exams are finally over.
huge sigh of relieved.

well........
i did BAD this time.
real bad.
perhaps its all because of the last minute-work.
NO NEXT TIME!!


i realised something recently,
PEOPLE DOESNT CHANGE MAGICALLY.
the more you expect,
the more disappointment you will get.

HOWEVER,
there are all kinds of people in this world.
you cant expect all of them to change.
the world is realistic.
sometimes,
you still need to change yourself for them.

weird huh....

ITS ALL BECAUSE..
THIS IS THE WORLD.

life is hard. @@

%&*#%*#%^&#$

you know what?
im really sick of the whole thing..
the house.. the family..

now i can understand why those teenagers wanted to ran away from their home.
usually i thought they are really naive and stupid enough.
until just now..
i just figured it out the actual answer.
they werent willing to leave their family..
they were forced to!

who doesnt want for a nice and warm shelter??
who doesnt want a constant pocket money every month??
who doesnt want a ready breakfast, lunch and dinner from mom??
who doesnt want a nice chit-chatting in the living room with the whole family after dinner???
EVERYBODY WANTS IT DON'T THEYYY!

BUT.......
theres always a BUT.
why they wanted to ranaway?
WHY?!!

because they're just like me.
SICK OF EVERYTHING BOUT THEM.
COMPLETELY FED UP!

but,
as you see,
i wont stupid enough ranaway from a nice and warm shelter and wandering around figuring what to do next.

SO YOU THINK YOU'RE ALL RIGHT IS IT?
AND IM THE PERSON WHO ARE ALL WRONG, RIGHT???
AND I DIDNT TAKE THIS HOUSE AS MY HOME,RIGHT???
AND I JUST LIVE INSIDE AS A 5-STAR HOTEL, RIGHTTT??
AND I'M NOT WILLING AS IF IM FORCED TO DO THE HOUSE CHORES, RIGHT??
AND YOU THINK I'VE USE ''STUDY OR FORGOTTEN'' AS A LAME EXCUSES, RIGHT??
WTF??

okay now
my dear parents,
i love you two to the core.
but WHYYY?
WHY you always have to judge the book by its own coverrrr?
after 16 years.
16 YEARS!!! AS YOUR DAUGHTER!,
you think that i'm always living for my own sake and doesnt care of anything about this family???!
...............................

IF i am REALLY so,
i've probably slapped both of you and packed and then run like the wind!
im really really really hurted, you know?
hearing all those words came out from your mouth.
and im fucking dissappointed.

pleaseeeeeee, for god's sake,
PLEASEEEE change the angle of your sight.
the ''fact'' that you saw might not actually it seems to be.

you've always says that home is the best place.
nobody will loves you more than family.

i know i know...
you love me.
but did you realised that you are actually using the wrong method?
in fact,
i doesnt feel so.
i feel depressed all the time.
you've BLAMED ME FOR ALL THE SAKE!
and exclaimed that
what you've done was right.
what you've think was right.
what you've saw was a fact.

how am i supposed to do?????!
when i've done my work, you said NOTHING.
and feels that im supposed to do so.
when i doesnt,
the ''GUNS'' started to shoot non-stop.

WTH?
im also a human.
just like you.
you will be happy if you're me??
think of it!
im also a human who needs compliment.

me, KURANG AJAR?!
LOL.
please dad,
i have my human rights too.
im just express my thoughts and feelings.
alright.. i admitted my volume may be slightly high..
BUT,
the anger inside me really worth so.

i know i shouldnt retreated you.
and i've tried.
BUT,
the anger inside me aroused more and more..
and finally,
*EXPLODED*

cause,
if i keep on quiet,
you will always think that what you said was right!!!
saya memang tak boleh tahan lagi that time.

im really tired enough..
i just wanted to live my life peacefully.
you cant imagine the tension that killing me.



P/S:
i really love you guys.
deep down from my heart.
please...
grant my little wish okayy?

X.X

IM DYINGGGGG.
SOON ENOUGHHHH!
...............
if my life still keep on continue the way it was.
im fucking exhausted.
of everything!!!
tension comes from everywhere anytime!

suddenly,
i feel LOST.

i think i will be mad soon.
im FUCKING fed up with everything!
UGHHHHHHHHH.

what is wrong with me??




seriously need a psychologist right now.
IM DYING MAN!

IF NOT....
catch me up in heaven soon.....

人生如戏.
戏如人生.
人生就像戏剧,
有开心的,
哭的,
可怜的......
如果全都是开心的.
那不就没戏做了??


人生往往就是那么的固执.
当你偏偏要它那样,
它就造反了.
结果.
往往就是那么的出乎意料.
谁都想像不到,
即将自己发生的事情

嗨..

认命呗~